oh, im tired
pui, im bored
nyeh, im irritated.
im everything, except good.

i dont understand alot of things. and i do noe know whether i should find out.
but frankly, most of them do not have answers. that's why i cant find the truth till now.

i dont understand why my mother scolds me for the slightest things.
i dont understand why i dont feel happy despite being so lucky.
i dont understand why i feel pressurised and worried, during the holidays.
i dont understand why i feel like i hate you, when uve done nothing wrong.
i dont understand why i feel this way, when i feel i dont know you at all.
i dont understand why is there a need to cry, when i cant even say what the hell is bothering me.

you know, i need someone to enlighten me with their wisdom!
goink. who wants to do it. i may be very touched and love you to death. its worth the try.

but thanks for making ur ic lifen.
i dono why, but maybe pulling me out after school would do me some help.
but i got a hellllllll long scolding from my mom. wont say why though. she's just acting wierd, like how my tummy is, right now.

i'll try to earn spare cash at the moment. on top of trying to complete the holiday homework, and trying MY BEST, to have fun during the holidays. like what miss chin said, this is the last holiday you can play. OMG. that sucks, so much.

im envious of rich, beautiful girls that get good jobs, get to do what they like, get lots of attention, lots of cool friends and lead (from what i see) very contented lives. they glide along with the wind and swoon to the music

but i tell myself i cant be like them. so for my own's face, i shall just take it as i dont want to be like them
i love the friends i have, and who i already are.
yakyakyak happy qixuans survives.

its good to be happy, because when you are happy you laugh alot and suddenly everything seems more beautiful. The world is disease-free! Dolphins are playing, the grass is green on every side, and daffodils are blossoming everywhere! What a wonderful world!

oh fuck. i dont feel like doing anything right now.
except taking rolls of tissue and wrapping them around my body. and hopping around in them. i dont know why,

when i look into the mirror just now, i thought i saw a squirrel or something. god, gross.