IM SICK AND TIRED OF WAITING
Thursday, November 09, 2006
for you to come home.
i have thought so long, and ive decided. to give up
i have people that want me to be me, unlike you.
i have people who are always there for me, unlike you.
i have people who accept me for who i am, unlike you.
i have people who love me, not you
i dont need you, at all.
BYEBYE
go away and never return. because im afraid...
BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE! get LOST.
ive grown up a year. and 15 years ago i was a little baby, struggling with a fever. with a mother worried sick for me that i'll barely make it.
and i did.
im strong. qixuan is strong! i shall be. ((:
but 15 years old is still considered young. there's so much i do not know, so much i do not understand, so much i havent tried, and so much i had not done. but a step at a time, i know one day i will.
wadever it is, im happy today.
cos school was cool, and i went out with lydia and lifen. people tt i had NEVER went out properly with since after exams. OH-WOW! but i miss manprit ):
we had lunch, and shopped, which is so lydia.
and I BOUGHT RABBIT
he's a bag, a white bag, and he's a funny rabbit. and i called him rabbit
HOW GREAT!
he'll go out with me from now. as long as im not in school-u, there he goes on my back, as we happily busk in the sunny singapore, without anyone. just me, and it.
and thanks for all the presents love!
esp the tops! HAHA. they are frikkin TIGHT la. ur shudnt hav made lydia the model. she's frikkin sKINNY. and i cant wear wad she can wear!!! hahaha! oh but they are pretty, and useful. so thanks
SYAHIDAH!!! oh oh! im eating ur cereal chocs now. AHHHHHHH. they taste gooood can! ah ah, i LOVE it!!!! thank you! its like, the yummiest present EVER.
and visha! thanks for ur pressie too!!! i didnt know u like winnie the pooh so much. or perhaps u THINK i like them. haha! okay! i do, THANK YOU!
mujia! dont worry about my present. you can always take ur time lahhh!!! hahaha! its good tt uve contributed so much to my happy birthday already!
OH-OH-OH. nobody's at home. its raining outside.
considering wad happened. if not for syahidah's chocolates and my dear rabbit. i think i'll be feeling glum now. drink hot chocolate, eat a banana, and hear some nice sweet songs that i can fall asleep with.
QIXUAN: toby darling, dont u think guys are wierd creatures???
TOBY: .....???
QIXUAN: dont you think they make our lives miserable, dont you hate them sometimes?
TOBY: *shakes head* telepathy says: im a guy, rmb?
QIXUAN: well... but ure different. spider guys are different from human guys. spider guys are always good, human guys are different.
TOBY: telepathy says: how about... spiderman?
QIXUAN: TOBY! that is out of the question.
TOBY: *flips opposite sadly*
qixuan will not think of you. after today.
i have thought so long, and ive decided. to give up
i have people that want me to be me, unlike you.
i have people who are always there for me, unlike you.
i have people who accept me for who i am, unlike you.
i have people who love me, not you
i dont need you, at all.
BYEBYE
go away and never return. because im afraid...
BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE! get LOST.
ive grown up a year. and 15 years ago i was a little baby, struggling with a fever. with a mother worried sick for me that i'll barely make it.
and i did.
im strong. qixuan is strong! i shall be. ((:
but 15 years old is still considered young. there's so much i do not know, so much i do not understand, so much i havent tried, and so much i had not done. but a step at a time, i know one day i will.
wadever it is, im happy today.
cos school was cool, and i went out with lydia and lifen. people tt i had NEVER went out properly with since after exams. OH-WOW! but i miss manprit ):
we had lunch, and shopped, which is so lydia.
and I BOUGHT RABBIT
he's a bag, a white bag, and he's a funny rabbit. and i called him rabbit
HOW GREAT!
he'll go out with me from now. as long as im not in school-u, there he goes on my back, as we happily busk in the sunny singapore, without anyone. just me, and it.
and thanks for all the presents love!
esp the tops! HAHA. they are frikkin TIGHT la. ur shudnt hav made lydia the model. she's frikkin sKINNY. and i cant wear wad she can wear!!! hahaha! oh but they are pretty, and useful. so thanks
SYAHIDAH!!! oh oh! im eating ur cereal chocs now. AHHHHHHH. they taste gooood can! ah ah, i LOVE it!!!! thank you! its like, the yummiest present EVER.
and visha! thanks for ur pressie too!!! i didnt know u like winnie the pooh so much. or perhaps u THINK i like them. haha! okay! i do, THANK YOU!
mujia! dont worry about my present. you can always take ur time lahhh!!! hahaha! its good tt uve contributed so much to my happy birthday already!
OH-OH-OH. nobody's at home. its raining outside.
considering wad happened. if not for syahidah's chocolates and my dear rabbit. i think i'll be feeling glum now. drink hot chocolate, eat a banana, and hear some nice sweet songs that i can fall asleep with.
QIXUAN: toby darling, dont u think guys are wierd creatures???
TOBY: .....???
QIXUAN: dont you think they make our lives miserable, dont you hate them sometimes?
TOBY: *shakes head* telepathy says: im a guy, rmb?
QIXUAN: well... but ure different. spider guys are different from human guys. spider guys are always good, human guys are different.
TOBY: telepathy says: how about... spiderman?
QIXUAN: TOBY! that is out of the question.
TOBY: *flips opposite sadly*
qixuan will not think of you. after today.
