its 830 in the morning now. SUNDAY morning, and my parents have GONE OUT, without me. because ive woken up late. BECAUSE OF THE BLOOODY NIGHT YESTERDAY, i was so tired i didnt bother to wake up early. i want breakfast laaa...

can you believe it?

come on, yesterday was bukish. come come, guess how much i got for my bowling game.
A BLOODY 55!!!!
i cant believe this, even my daddy stared at me with AWE. my brother just covered his face and refused to look on. everyone ought to laugh at me. but im good and u shud be proud of me, cos i didnt swear off bowling after tt night.

and when i came out from this bowling center, i happened to see a large group of people around my age, about to enter a snooker's center. whatever crap i call them because i do not know what are they called. all nonsence la, people entering snookers' club doesnt affect me at all, but it just made me think a little.
cigarettes, booze, smoke, boy-girl nonsence.

dont call me stupid or naive when i group them together. i just think that way. maybe it just makes me feel a little happier that my mom protects me just in the right amount and brought me up in a way that im still in love with barney and disney movies when i am 15 and get moved when grannies bend down onto the floor to feed a kitten.

well, if you dont get what i mean. im glad that im not at all interested in things like that
if you STILL dont get me, i am talking about not having interests in clubbing, pooling (altho its a little okay), gambling, drinking, smoking or wadever crap labelled under 'night activities'.

i rather be the girl that comes home 6 in the evening, sleeps at 1030, and wakes up at 7 the next morning. its the life that i like. maybe i'll change in the future, but for now. i like it this way...

aiyah, if you're calling me a 'act-good' girl you can jolly well go and die.
i have friends that club, smokes, and tons that drink, play pool till 4am in the morning, and stay out the entire night. but i like them because they do it due to the fact that they LIKE it, not because they wana be a poser bad girl.

if you're doing it because you like the image that this activities bring you, you ought to face the wall once you wake up at 2pm and do some self reflection

to me, hanging out late at night doing wadever nonsence is not harmless, but its nothing to be proud of.

my uncle used to tell my daddy that he has to be aware, because from the look of ME, lim qi xuan, he said i look like the kinda girl that needs daddy to bring home from a club.

i dont treat that as an insult, i just use that to gage be through my actions now, and to prove him wrong.
my brother asked me before. if you dont learn, you will never know. its harmless what, you play pool also not bad, play poker, play bridge, then chalet will not be bored. mahjong all these. not as if learn will die right?

can i just say i have no interest? and im not standing up against it because i suck at them. and i am not putting on an act not to like them because i have no ACCESS to them. that is NOT TRUE.
wadever it is, i bet i'll be scolded once i post this up. because everyone will be against what i am saying.