one after another, you hurl words at us like loaded machines.
all your talks meant to be encouraging, to spur us on, to brighten our futures.

but they just made me feel worse instead.
made me drained, and demoralised.
you make things sound so easy
i guess you need a day in our shoes
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my mother was threatening me that she would ask mrsouyang on why choir is taking up so much of my time when im a total screwed up kid with terrible results.

and my piano tcher just called to tell me there would be lesson at 1630 tomorrow.

things just ruined things.
goodness knows what.