arent there some days when you just feel like changing your hair, your clothes, and everything about you. i think it kicks in when i get too bored with life.

with holidays, with school, with work. work isnt really work, though.
that's life very much for me now. it just says, basically, that i am bored.
indeed.

i'll surf the web and fantasize about chopping my hair off, which i wudnt cause i lack such courage in real life.

kao has left and he is probably happy in Thailand now.
he had hordes of people to send him off which is very nice, and its good that he is not very sad about leaving. it makes bidding him off less painful too. he came very much like Kao and left very much like Kao. there's only one Kao to remember in that way.

i havent been getting the strange surrealistic dreams which i now quite miss.
i am getting proper life-like dreams again which i forget the instant i wake up, but at times i wake up seeing his face. and i cant remember why. my sister reported to me that ive been talking in my sleep, which im quite afraid i'll blurt out things i dont want to say. so im considering taping my mouth up to sleep, which will get me therapy sessions which is quite weird, i'll avoid that.

ive earned something from my dad and i cant decide what i really want, and i dont know which would help me more. its blocking my brains i cant think. im superficial like that, i get hyped up over things that cost money.
i am hence, very evil.

Congrats to Tiak and Enci for winning graphite! i know u guys will get something in any case, which is very awesome. we are nanyang, afterall :P
i shall draw little trophies on your arms the next time i meet u so you will know you are champion. im proud of you two!

tomorrow is banquet with adlin and syahidah.
i hope syahidah remembers if not i will send Sax after her, and slither into her bedroom in the middle of the night.
She is afraid of Sax, god knows why.