i cant take this anymore. ive sat down here for almost an hour, trying to convey whatever im been feeling right now but NOTHING IS POSSIBLE
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i think im not going to blog as regularly as i did in the past because it is high time for me to learn to say certain things in real life. my mind is always drifting out in little bits and pieces and a blog is never too adequate to capture them all. too bad! i should. stop. talking. to imaginary people and other strange ones who treat my blog like newspaper to my life. byebye!

stab you assholes who dont believe in me!
one day when you laugh at me, you will laugh so hard that your guts burst, and the intestinal juices will gush into your bloodstream, get pumped slowly, like little bubbles of bubbling poison, into your arteries, your veins, your heart, your brain. it will stop your thoughts, and make you forget to breathe. oh then you will hate your heart for beating. how much you will hate yourself for being alive. you will grab your throat and fight for air, you'll kick the ground and groan in an obscene and pathetic manner. roll your eyes to the back of your head so you can see clearer, you'll look so revolting your friends laugh at you. their laughter will ring in your ears till you're gone. you have lost. your lousy sense of humour eventually kills you off.

you shall. you shall.
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