even if you dislike some of the songs in my mp3, not understand what i mean at times or cant comprehend why i spend so much on books and plays, i adore you and do it with all my heart. it is like ive stripped away all my ideals and expectations just to plunge myself into this much uncertainty and queer unfamiliar thoughts that ive avoided all my life. even if i dont say the right things and make your insides flutter anymore, how hard is that to get?

i realised today the closest people to me have hearts. these beautiful genuine hearts that like little flames, are weak but warm. see how they flicker at times, so gentle and comforting.