why am i so full of tears today? think a cup of water filled to its brim. its something i cant comprehend even till now. i woke up crying, had my breakfast in tears before i picked myself up for school. even after i reached home i cried over cartoons, while doing homework, while typing this. sooner or later my mom will send me to a shrink. i laugh till i cry, i did all kinds of things to stop myself. im listening to the New Order right now, and im stil crying. New Order, is not, suppose to make you cry! im exasperated and frustrated with myself i should mask my eyes up with tape. ive told myself to shut myself off all thoughts that will upset me. what frustrates me is that i dont exactly know what im crying over. its like when ur back is itching and you dont know why, but it will just keep itching and slowly eat you up. i wonder if there's anything wrong with my eyeballs,

probably im going blind.

:( ohhell.