yesterday im lazy.
today im lazy with the fword in front.
no, and im not trying to be vulgar here (: forgive me

last night i told myself: since im going out at night i shall study in the morning.

in the morning, i changed my mind: my family wont be at home in the afternoon. so i shall study in the afternoon, now i shall play with fimo clay
and yes, i played with fimo clay, to the disgust of my mother, who is trying very hard to make me study.

in the afternoon (now) : i realised im so ill-disciplined tt i should not hav trusted myself to study when there's no supervision from my mother. because hell, i will never study even when there isnt a single noise distraction at home.

my computer is still my best friend. and also my greatest enemy.
but i shant blame my com. i believe i can control myself. its just laziness.

i was telling my mother.
if its bio, maths, or even CHEMISTRY. i wouldnt mind. but its CHINESE. omg. its CHINESE.. with a bold, italic, and an underline
i suck at it, and im not studying. tell me wad will happen! (:

if you know me well enough, i hated chinese since i was forced to take hmt since i was in p4. how sad. how can a poor child be made to hate studying when she's barely 10. that's why spore kids are always so stressed. people make us hate something tt we will do till we're 21.

just now i was holding my chinese file, filled with chinese notes i DO NOT understand, and smiling gayly at myself. singing to the JOJO circus theme song. my mother then started telling me how lazy i am and everything. and i was just laughing along to wadever she said.

she was telling me how hard my brother worked, and got an a2. and i should work twice as hard to get an a2 too. if not at the rate, i'll get like c5 or c6 or stuff like tt.

let me digress:
nah, its a good way to prove to my brother that not all girls are muggers
he said the girls in his school study like there's no tomorrow and score around the same as a guy
if that was meant to be boasting, then i hope he knows im not affected by it at all.
my frens, who are all girls. slack like shit and get good marks too.

but wadever. now i shall hide in my room with a good book and a big cup of iced milo. i must be out of my mind. but who cares.
please dont scold me. please dont.