lonely. lonely..... lonelyyyyyyyyyyy.
no im not lonely. im just bored to the core. altho russell and rw is talking to me at random minute intervels, i still have nothing cool to entertain myself with.
games are boring, sims lag like crap. my brother is yelling wierd stuff tt meant to be funny but im not amused. i feel mean, and terrible.

to make you proud of me. let me announce something awful,
ive wasted today. the whole freakin day by my computer. waiting for SOME HONOURED person's mail, and waiting to see if nice testimonials would fall from the sky repeatedly and make me seem popular, or at least a little inspiration to help me with my art or write a song. or maybe meet a new friend that can make me laugh and keep me entertained for a short while.

but to my disappointment, the mail didnt come.
and i didnt manage to boost my popularity. which suck.
neither had i got any inspiration for anything.
and friends dont pop out from behind walls.

i cant find anyone that can lend me a sweater.
and i cant coax my mother into buying one for me. altho its summer now in australia and i doubt i'll need a jacket. it'll just be cool to add another item into my pathetic wardrobe using the trip as an excuse.

i feel lousy now because i did nothing in the day. except eat a very full lunch and just listening to music and amusing myself with not very amusing things.
and worse off, i did nothing in the night.
the only meaningful thing i did just now was watch the fairy oddparents and laugh at my beloved cosmo.

im thinking, not going out is fine, at least i should watch a nice film, do some writing or at least 1 question out of my CLEAN blank piece of holiday homework. rotting away is the sickest thing to do in a holiday.

dont u guys sometimes feel like when ure alone at home, with no one to talk to, you feel horribly lonely and long so hard for someone to talk to, to go out with, to laugh with, and just, be with?
i dont understand. i always feel this way when i stone at the ticking clock. with nothing much in mind.

well. this isnt the way i should spend my day, esp when im leaving so soon ): wont u guys miss me!
ruiwen is reluctant to say she loves me.

i shall say i love her now.
just for the fun of it. and right now, at least she's being a wonderful girl and keeping me company on a lonely, lonely night.